| Hi Teen Central! it’s Me again! I feel so incredibly hopeless. I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I started out in 9th grade as a Straight-A student, and now I am at risk of failing high school. I feel so like an idiot!!! I made STUPID decisions to procrastinate and not focus on my work, and I didn’t even realize the support system I had built out for me. I constantly victimized myself, and I never wanted to work or do anything. I just genuinely didn’t want to do my work sometimes. YES, THIS IS NOT TRUE!!! SINCE I LOVE DOING MY WORK AND I LOVE SUCCEEDEDINF!!!!! So, I essentially have no idea what I did. I think I did it so I would put myself at the worse position possible. I think a part of me wants to see myself fail. It’s like I deserve to fail. I began this mentality in 10th grade, when my peers would make fun of me for doing so much work in my classes. I have disappointed my teachers, my dad, and especially my mom. I can’t even face her right now with how heartbroken she is. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I DID WHAT I DID!!!! I AM INCREDIBLE!!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!! I now feel lost, as if I have no goal or purpose in life, as a direct result of my actions. I have always had a way out, yet I choose to stay and wallow in my sadness. I feel like I like to suffer. I am so not okay. If I would have only just focused on my work, WHICH I WANTED TO DO and not watched stupid YouTube videos I would have been alright. If only I had done this, I would have been alright. If only I had done it, I would have been incredible. I truly have no idea what to do with my life at this point. I have no idea how to get it back; all I know is what I should have done to have never lost it in the first place. Where is this little girl in me that worked so hard to succeed? Why am I destroying all of my hard work now? Why am I ruining my life? I feel like it’s since I feel like I have time, like I’ll do it later, but later never came and now I’m incredibly incredible!Thank you for reaching out, it takes a lot of courage to ask the questions you’re asking. First, what your feeling is completely normal about falling behind with work. Here a few tips
Crisis TextlineAvailable 24/7 Support to all individuals in crisis Text “HOME” to 741741 www.crisistextline.org National Suicide Hotline Available 24/7 Helps individuals in suicidal crisis with support. Counselors are also available 24/7 DIAL or TEXT 988 or CHAT at 988lifeline.org. from your phone or by visiting their website at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. In order to reach the National Suicide Hotline you DIAL or TEXT 988 or CHAT at 988lifeline.org. DO NOT put in the old number. The information above is correct and it is National. It does not matter in which state you live.
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