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I Don’t Know What To Do

By May 5, 2021No Comments

Hey, I’m J and I’m not really at a good stage of my life right now. It started with my childhood trauma, when I was the age of two my dad got deported back to Mexico. I haven’t seen him since, at the age of four my mom died due to drugs and smoking. Then at the age of six, I was sexually assaulted, I been bullied growing up. I always felt like my family didn’t like me, I was the least favorite like my cousins got all the attention. Back in September one of my uncles went into cardiac arrest and got into a car accident and lost his life. Lately, I have been cutting and wanting to take my life, my grandma just got diagnosed with stage 3 chronic kidney disease. My uncle moved in with me recently and has been verbally abusing me because he’s an alcoholic. I also just got cheated on, and I think my family wants to kick me out cause they found a vape and a pregnancy test. I took abut 6 pills today, and also cut myself. I don’t even know what to do anymore.

Helping Yourself

  • It sounds like you are feeling really hopeless and overwhelmed by the many sad and traumatic things that have happened in your life. You are not alone! We want you to be safe, and BE HERE! Please take some steps, right now, to help yourself.
    • Right now, go to someone that you trust and let them know you need help. This person can be a friend, family member, neighbor, teacher – just make it someone you can trust. It’s ok to tell someone that you are thinking about suicide. It’s ok to get help.
    • If you can’t think of anyone to talk to, Right now call 1-800-273-8255. Tell them how you feel. Let them help you. If you would rather text, send HELLO to 741741.
    • If you are in danger right now, stop and CALL THE POLICE.
  • We hear and recognize what you’ve gone through and appreciate that you feel able to reach out to Teen Central for help. That takes a great amount of strength and courage- thank you. It’s time to take the next step, and get help.

When You’re Ready

  • Finding a safe outlet to express your intense feelings isn’t always easy. It’s important to expand your resources to support you during those times. On our website, in the “TOOLS” tab we have some resources that you may want to use, including a Support Plan, Positive Affirmations and an MPE Toolkit. These may help you put your thoughts in order or help you identify a resource that you may need when you’re having difficulty doing that for yourself.
  • It’s also important for you to understand that the feelings and urges you’re having to hurt yourself may be connected to Depression. Many young people that develop depression from really tough life events struggle with thoughts to hurt themselves. There is hope! Check out our DEPRESSION section in LEARN. There’s also a great resource about DEPRESSION in our TOOLS section.
  • Do you have any things that you’ve used in the past or that you’d be willing to try and use as a safe outlet for your feelings? Just being outside is helpful for feelings of depression or anxiety. What about walks, or yoga? How about songwriting or poetry? You could do any of these outside in nature.
  • We strongly want you to consider talking to a counselor or therapist. Many people feel really relieved to have someone they can talk to outside of their family, friends that can be trusted and will help them figure out how to handle problems. You’ve come so far- show the world what you have to offer!