Is It My Fault?

Is It My Fault?

In the beginning of my 8th grade year a lot of students transferred to my school. I made new friends but one sticks out. My friend claimed to have an inner person. His inner person did not like me at all. Halfway through the school year I found out that he had a crush on me. My other friend had a crush on him and when she found out she was not happy with me. She became distant even though I did not like him back. My friend that liked me is now being very awkward at times and is also being very touchy. I feel as though he still likes me, but just will not admit it. My girlfriend then started talking openly about killing herself because the boy who liked me did not like her. I feel as though it is my fault that she is trying to commit suicide. All my friends reassure me that it is not my fault but I can tell they are lying. I do not know what to do and it is adding to all my family problems. At home I get hit sometimes. My family is having a custody battle. On top of all of that my siblings are attempting suicide. Every day I end up having a panic attack. I take my prescription medicine for my anxiety but I have also been buying some drugs at school. I feel like my whole life is falling apart but I know somewhere out there someone is suffering even worse than me. I feel bad complaining about my problems when they are not that bad. I am falling and no one is there to pick me up.

CONSIDER THIS:

  • It can be an overwhelming feeling when you have a lot of things going on at once. You are strong for trying your hardest to balance both problems and reaching out for help.
  • Some people tend to forget that certain gestures that seem โ€œokayโ€ to them may not be for you. Be honest and let them know you are noticing those gestures and be clear about how they make you feel. This will allow them to stop doing those things completely or approach you in a appropriate manner.
  • Suicide is very serious issue and guiding your friend and siblings towards the right direction of getting help is always the correct thing to do. Contact the National Suicide Hotline (Available 24/7) 1-800-273-8255 https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
  • Taking your prescribed medication accordingly is safe but consuming harmful drugs can play a large role in your life if you become dependent on them. Never purchase drugs at school! Think of all of the ramifications if you’re caught. Plus consider how those recreational drugs affect your prescribed medication.
  • You also mentioned your home life being tough at the moment and even said you get hit sometimes. This must be reported immediately. Find a trusted a adult like a counselor or teacher/ mentor to speak to about this or contact The National Teen Help line is 1-800-273-TALK It is available 24/7.
  • You can always reach out to a teacher or guidance counselor at school about all that you’re going through right now.

HELP YOURSELF:

  • What are some things you can start changing today and to improve your situation at school and at home?
  • Who can you contact for help immediately or just to talk to when the ones closest to you are not available?
  • What are some activities you can implement in your life to create a positive space for yourself during hard times?
  • How would you advise a friend that came to you with the problems you’re experiencing right now?
  • What are some of the possible issues that could arise from buying drugs at school? What is the zero-tolerance law that is implemented in schools?
  • What do you know about the possible issues that could arise from using recreational drugs when you’re on prescription medication?