Some thoughts around nowhere

By May 25, 2022No Comments

Some thoughts around nowhere

I’m embarrassed of my last and middle name. For fuck sake my name makes me sound like I’m in my 60s and I had a boring job like an accountant. I have never met someone with my name. So, I ask you, does that make me special? No, I got it from my drunk dad that I’m nothing like him and I wish to just remove it, remove my last name. Maybe when I’m old enough I’ll just remove my whole name, I didn’t realize that when I was younger, I was just grateful that I was alive. Because I could have had daddy issues, yeah cool, but my dad also moved here where I just moved 2 years ago (what a fucking stalker)!! He said he moved here because of my brain injury. LMAO he hasn’t even stopped to see me, typical of my dad. I also hate this town, this racist little town, PA is the most judgmental and racist state in America. FACTS! From the two years I’ve been here; I got a booger flicked on my new jeans, got into a few racial and political arguments and ironically I got called a n**** on the back of the bus. (I’m Hispanic by the way) have I told my parents I’ve been getting bullied, HELL NO! Why would I tell them, they are already bullying me around because of how fat I am. My sister is also getting bullied around the same way, my sister’s 10. THAT JUST MAKES ME CRY AND SCREAM IN MY PILLOW! So let’s see what s*** goes down in the freshman year, am I excited no, am I scared no because I can deal with shit myself ; all I want to do is get my diploma and then move to Mexico, because guess what I haven’t even seen my grandparents because my absent father wouldn’t even show me a picture of them. If life was perfect I wouldn’t even know about my father, if life were perfect I wouldn’t need a cast in my skull, if life were perfect I would have been more skinnier, if life was perfect I would know what I wanted to do by now.


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