I sit on my phone and iPad all day not moving much but when I do move I see a mirror I hate seeing them Ik I’m pretty but I hate the way my body looks Ik other people feel the same about their bodies I look back down at my phone and still no text back that’s all I really do on my phone is to wait for him I don’t like being alone no I hate being alone Ik I have friends but he is the only person who can either make me alone or not we got into an argument over something I said I didn’t mean to make him mad I just needed to tell him how I feel he said sorry then I messed up even more I just get in my head and I just needed an answer. But this is what I do I get attach to someone that did me wrong I’m wearing the clothes from that night that night he did me wrong. I miss the way we talk, the way we walked around the school together the way he would get the mascara off my face I really like him. We would tell each other things about who our new crush was. He said no one but then showed me things that no friend would see. He used me. I already hated myself now I hate myself self even more idk why he did that. He was my reason why I would wake up now he’s not. I loved him I really did. He knows he hurt me. But it’s whatever. I hate myself and he made it worse. I haven’t hurt myself in a while and all of this happened and I just idk I was doing it again. I lost one of my best friends bc of a girl and now this. To make it better I lost a other friend. What am I doing wrong I try and try. I hate being alone.
Thank you for sharing your story with our TeenCentral Community. It sounds like you are both coping with an argument with someone important as well as coping with the feelings of loneliness and boredom. We are sorry to hear that you are experiencing such regret and loss.
THINGS TO CONSIDER NOW:
- We hear you when you say that you felt that you could only talk and relate to this person. Have you considered building up your social supports. Try finding a supportive adult you can talk to, someone who you can trust.
- You’re not alone in feeling this way—many people experience loneliness at different points in life.
WHEN YOU ARE FEELING UP TO IT:
- Express yourself creatively: Write in a journal, paint your feelings, or compose music.
- Write something unique: Craft a short story, start a journal, write a poem, or even try songwriting.
- Make art: Paint, sketch, doodle, or try digital art—let your imagination run wild.
- Craft something: Create friendship bracelets, design a collage, or try origami. Work on LEGO creations, construct a mini model, or try woodworking.
- Practice self-care: Engage in activities that make you feel good, like exercising, meditating, or enjoying your favorite book.
- Care for a plant: Having something to care for can bring comfort and companionship.
