I have an e.d. (eating disorder) and today was a bad day (or technically good in most people’s view). I actually ate two full meals today compared to none. On a normal day, I have one small piece of junk (a bag of cheez-its are my obsession rn) and that’s it. But today I actually ate, which is a good thing, but to me it felt like I was failing. I know it’s not me but the e.d. talking, but deep down, I don’t want to get better and I hadn’t realized how much my ed is my life. I was happy today too, then felt guilty for being happy. I shouldn’t be happy I had a bad ed day.
Help Yourself
- It must be so difficult to feel that pressured all the time. Thank you for having the strength to reach out to someone for help.
- Have you considered seeking help from a professional? You may want to look into talking to a counselor or a therapist that specializes in eating disorders in your area. If you’re unsure where to find someone, consider talking to your Primary Care Physician for recommendations and they can help.
- There is also a National Eating Disorders hotline that you can use if you think that would help: National Eating Disorders Helpline – Available Mon.-Thurs. 9:00am – 9:00pm, Fri. from 9:00am – 5:00pm (EST) – Support, resources and treatment options for people struggling with eating disorders – Hotline 1-800-931-2237 – www.nationaleatingdisorders.org
Consider This
- Oftentimes eating disorders are a person’s attempt at control in their life. Have you been feeling like you don’t have control in important areas? You may want to take a look at what’s been going on since your eating disorder started and you may find other areas in your life that need your attention.
- You said today you ate properly. Take a minute to consider what was different about today than other days?
- In our “Stories” tab, we have a search bar along the top. If you type “eating disorders” in there and hit return, all of our past stories that pertain to eating disorders will come up. You may want to take a look at some of those to see other responses that may help, and to help you realize that you’re not alone in this.
- It takes a brave person to talk to others about their innermost struggles. Take a minute to recognize that in yourself and be proud.
