I live with borderline personality disorder, eating disorders, multiple forms of self-harm, major depressive disorder, severe anxiety, and possibly bipolar disorder. I’m actually pretty normal until you get to know me. I enjoy photography, playing the piano, listening to Twenty One Pilots, relishing my union with the Skeleton Clique, and writing. But I’m not normal. I can’t keep a friend for the life of me. It doesn’t help that I’ve tried to kill myself twice and have scars covering every inch of my arm from wrist to shoulder and also from my hip to my knee. I’m kind of just screwed up. My family doesn’t like me. We haven’t gotten along for a very, very long time. I’m insanely random and I will talk about whatever. It’s just a cover-up anyway. People have sent me to more counselors, hospitals and organizations than I could count. Residential, inpatient (multiple times), outpatient, intensive, regular counseling. It’s a mess. I’m done with it. I’m still learning how to cope. I don’t know what’s happening. Hopefully, it’ll change one day.
Consider This:
- It is hard cope with mental health issues like depression and anxiety when your family is not getting along. It is good you have fun interests, like writing and music.
- If counseling is not working for you, consider other forms of therapy. Perhaps music or family therapy could give you a chance to help you and your family address your dynamics and issues.
- Consider talking to extended family members or a trusted friend about your problems at home. Try writing in a journal about what you believe is bothering you.
- Take things one day at a time. It might help if you to write down the positive things that happens everyday. That way you can see your life in another point of view.
- Another option is calling the Child Help hotline at 1-800-422-4453. The counselors there will listen to what you have to say, without becoming judgmental. The call is available 24/7, it’s toll-free and it’s totally confidential. Give it a try!
Help Yourself:
- What more information could you find out about anxiety, depression, and bipolar disorder?
- What other forms of therapy or alternative medicine could help with your mental issues?
- What might happen if your family tries counseling? What issues do you want to address?
