I can’t take it anymore. As long as I can remember, my mom has slapped me or hit me in some sort of way. Today just a couple of hours ago my mom and I were having a conversation about school which then turned into her hitting me. I was protecting myself by hitting her hand away, she then yells “don’t hit your mom, I brought you into this world. I can bring you out.” She then continues to hit me. She then grabs my dogs toy, which is a big thick rope. She grabs it and starts hitting me waking towards me which I am walking backwards to try to get away. She’s screaming and yelling at me I keep walking backwards until I reached the front door. I grab to try to unlock it so I can leave my house. My dad wakes up grabs my mom and tells her to stop. I try to leave but he sees me and removes my hand from the door. I don’t know if I can take it anymore. My mom has given me depression, anxiety, and hate for her. She says she loves me but continues to hit me. I can’t take it anymore to the point where I want to leave my house and be with a different family and to end my life. I don’t know what to do.
Ways to Help Yourself:
- Hello, it sounds like you are going through a really difficult time right now. I would like to start by saying thank you for having the courage to reach out to TeenCentral and sharing your story with us. Be proud of yourself for reaching out.
- If you ever feel unsafe and feel like you want to end your life know there are people, you can talk to. Don’t hesitate to reach out to the Suicide Prevention Lifeline. They are available 24 hours a day 7 days a week, you can contact them by calling 1-800-273-8255 or https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org. If you would rather text someone text the crisis help line by texting “Hello” to 741-741. There is always someone just a text away.
- Have you thought about talking to your dad about your feelings? Having a safe adult to talk to might feel like a weight lifted off your shoulders. Or maybe there is another person in your family that you feel comfortable taking to. This might help cope with your feelings. You could also use this connection and conversation to come up with a plan for when these things occur. Remember your safety is important.
Consider This:
- Talking a trusted adult outside your home or family, maybe a teacher or guidance counselor. They might be able to help with your feelings of depression, anxiety and conflict with your mom.
- Checking out our TeenCentral website and reading about similar stories or feelings you’re going through. You can also click on the feelings to read more about how to cope with the following: depression, anxiety, family.
- Take this time to check out one of our blogs “Getting Help for Abuse on Your Own“. One of our biggest goals is to make sure that kids feel safe. This blog goes through some of the feelings that you may or may not be feeling, along with giving some resources on how to process through some of those feelings.
- Lastly, finding different ways to cope such journaling/writing, art or music. If you click on our “Tools” tab you can find a range of different options.
