I’m 12 years old I turn 13 in July. My parents have always had problems since I was a baby I have seen them hit each other, cops get called and i can say I’m traumatized for sure. They have been okay for a few years and they have been fighting sometimes. Recently my mom has been sucked up into politics and barely worries about me or my sisters. i know she loves us she is just always busy. My dad is always at work or playing video games. I have always felt like i need to keep the house clean, take care or my sisters and pets but once i hit middle school i was pulled out of public school and brought into home school. I’ve had a support my whole life but now when i try and go to family then end up getting mad at im starting to cause these problems onto my friends. I try to help my mom too but my stress really takes over me and i never feel like enough for anyone . I’ve had 4 suicide thoughts but these past weeks have been good some how me and ex got back together and thing have been good but today i was doing school in the office and my mom snatched my phone out of my hand and went thru it there was some stuff on there that probably should have never been done and i know that now she completely cut me off from the world and now i feel like i have no one.
THINGS TO DO RIGHT NOW:
- Thank you so much for your courage in reaching out to the TeenCentral Community. We’re here to support and appreciate you trusting us with your story. You seem to have so much going on and feeling alone while that’s happening can be really scary and overwhelming. First – take a couple deep breaths. We are here with you.
- Next, if you ever again feel unsafe and need immediate help, there is help available 24/7. If you are feeling unsafe towards yourself, you can text 988 for the Suicide Hotline. You can Text “HOME” to 741741 for the Crisis Hotline. Here’s the link to all the helplines Teens in CRISIS | HELP HOTLINES ON TEENCENTRAL
- Feeling alone can be tough to cope with. We hear you that it feels like all your connections are being cut off, but we still want to try to find connection somewhere. Can you think of any adults that you can talk to? Maybe another relative or adult friend of your parents that can be a source of support?
WHEN YOU ARE READY:
- It sounds like you’ve had a lot of pressure on you in your family for a long time and that can have an impact on all parts of your life. If you can’t get rid of some of the stress, we have to find ways to cope with it. Do you like journaling or writing? Sometimes when there is too much happening, writing it down can be a good way to let those feelings escape so we don’t take them out on other people accidentally.
- It’s respectable that you feel like you have to take care of cleaning up and other adult tasks, but you shouldn’t have to do those things. If you are put in a position where you have to keep doing those things, we at least think that you should make sure to take time for yourself. What are some things that you like to do that make you happy? Please try to take at least 10 minutes per day to do something to make yourself happy.
- Keep trying to seek connections. Being home schooled can be tough when it comes to making social contacts. Are there any groups or clubs in your community that your family might let you join?
