hello, I am 12 and I’m going insane.
Im in middle school, 7th. I suffer from severe anxiety, depression and ADD or maybe ADHD. the doctors don’t know yet. I been dealing with anxiety for my whole life, its genetic from both of my parents. recently I feel like I’m constantly not good enough, I’m never myself. lets just say how I constantly feel is: I feel like I want to hurt myself and sometimes I feel like I want to hurt other people too, teen central I’m petrified of myself, I was NEVER like this and now I’m ALWAYS like this and I’m scared, I am on medications and I feel like they aren’t working.
even worse, my parents don’t make it any better that they are constantly wanting me to be myself, “why do you have to be that kid”, “whats wrong with you”, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. why cant you help me and be a dad, and help me figure out what IS wrong. I feel like I want to hurt my dad and leave him and tell him that I wish he never made me. they are helpful, but in all of the wrong ways. its like when you ask for toilet paper and they bring you a roll of paper towels. And yes, I have talked to them about how I feel. and no, it didn’t work.
I’m scared of myself, I am starting to feel scared for other people around me and I feel like I actually want to kill myself but I’m only 12.
HELP YOURSELF:
- First let me start by thanking you for being so brave and vulnerable with your entry to TeenCentral; that was not an easy thing to do for sure.
- When you are having these feelings please do not be afraid to reach out for help in those moments who can answer you right away.
- The National Suicide Hotline is a great option and they are available 24/7 on their website or by calling 988 from your phone.
- The Crisis Textline is also available 24/7 at their website or by texting the word “HOME” to 741741. Their website also has a chat feature and they are even available on WhatApp!
- You mentioned some concerning stuff about your home life. There are ways you can reach out for help if someone is hurting you at home. And if it’s not happening yet, keep this number on hand just in case. Consider contacting:
- Child Help USA National Hotline. There are individuals available to help 24/7 on their website or by calling 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453).
- You said that you didn’t yet share any of this with the doctors. PLEASE TELL them the thoughts and feelings you are having. They are there to help and by being open and honest with them like you have here could prove to be very beneficial.
CONSIDER THIS:
- Head to the Learn tab on our website. Here you can read about many topics such as Anger Management, Depression, Family, and Suicide.
- Once you are done exploring the Learn tab, check out the Tools page on our website.
- This section is full of helpful worksheets and guides such as Anger Map, Support Plan, and Self Positive Talk, that are built to help guide teens through these challenging times.
- Have you any coping skills? Think about what positive activities/hobbies you enjoy doing. How about going for walks or exercising? Journaling is always a great option as well. Keeping the hands and mind busy and balanced are important. Have you ever tried building small craft projects at home? If not, give it a try, you may enjoy it and it may help.
Try to avoid extreme solutions when you are feeling this way. The world needs you in it. And there are people who are there to lend you hand along the way!
