Too stupid to die
i cant even try ending it without messing it up in some way.
tried hanging: not tight enough
tried an od: just barfed
tried slitting my wrist: not deep enough, concluded im too stupid to die
STARTING FROM HERE
- When going through a difficult time it can be hard for people to reach out to others so we thank you for having the courage to speak up and let us know that you are seriously struggling. It sounds like life has been really difficult for you, so difficult that you repeatedly tried to end your life. Even though your words are “I’m too stupid to die”, we are glad that you are still here. We are glad that you are still surviving this difficult life.
- Young people often consider extreme solutions like suicide when they are feeling either hopeless or isolated, or both. When you feel like there is no way out of your pain, suicide seems like maybe the only option. Does this sound familiar? We are here to tell you that it’s not the only option. There are ways to reduce your isolation and put you on a path that can help build some hope back into your life.
- The first step in reducing your isolation is to bring another person into your situation so that they understand what you’re going through. You’ve already taken the first step by writing to TeenCentral for help. The next thing to do is to reach out to people in those moments when you’re really thinking and planning to do something to hurt yourself. For example, you can reach out to the Suicide Prevention Lifeline. They are available 24 hours a day and you can contact them at:
- 1-800-273-8255
- https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
- or by texting “Hello” to 741-741
- Do you have someone that you can talk to in person like a friend, trusted teacher, counselor, coach, or religious leader? Even though it’s really helpful to write into a website, or talk to a person on a hotline, or chat with somebody online, there’s really nothing like a good old-fashioned face-to-face conversation. If there’s someone in your life that could possibly be there for you, someone you could really trust, it could really help you.
CONSIDER THIS
- Often times people who consider suicide are dealing with underlying depression. Do you feel that you have depression? Have you ever seen a doctor or therapist for depression? If you would like to learn more about the symptoms of depression you can visit the TeenCentral Learn tab or CLICK HERE to learn more. It could be that if you receive some help for this underlying condition that you would feel less like wanting to end your life when things got difficult. Maybe it would be possible for you to learn some coping skills for the depression you’re facing and you wouldn’t feel the need to resort to extreme solutions.
- We gain hope in our lives when we start to see a future. We start to see a future when we can see a light at the end of the tunnel of our troubles. It’s easy to get overwhelmed when you’re feeling depressed and anxious and stressed out about life. We recommend taking life day by day and learning coping skills that work for you. The same thing doesn’t work for everyone; you have to learn what works for you. For example CLICK HERE for a downloadable music tool that teaches you how to use music as a coping skill for when you are stressed. Maybe music is not your thing. One of the coping skills we very often recommend is journaling. Journaling is so helpful for so many people because it helps you get your thoughts and feelings out of your head and down onto paper. Would you like to learn more about this? CLICK HERE and read more.
- Most importantly we had TeenCentral want to remind you that you are important. You are valuable to this world. We want you to survive and keep living. And we will always be here if you need someone with whom to share your thoughts and feelings.
