Every day I am at work I feel myself lose more and more motivation. Sometimes I bring a garbage bag into the single person bathroom and lay on the floor on the bag to nap. Today I took a 45 minute nap (I work in custodial so I have unlimited access to garbage bags and plenty of downtime) and now feel like I have nothing to do again. All this downtime at work really takes a toll on me. I can feel myself grow suicidal and don’t know what to do. I am scared to tell my partner because they get upset, especially if I don’t tell them for a longer period of time and then I tell them later and at this point I don’t know what to do or what to say. I’ve been writing poetry about it which helps but also makes it worse if that makes sense? I am not too sure what to do, it’s been getting worse every work day.
- Thank you for writing into TeenCentral and sharing your story with us.
- Please take a moment to think of what you might be feeling. We have some great resources on Anxiety and Depression in our Learning Tab, which I have linked her for you.
- Is there anyone that you can talk to about what you are feeling? This could be anyone from a friend to a parent or family member. You mentioned that this is happening at work often. Is there someone at work that you can trust with this information. Maybe they could even come up with some other tasks that will help you not have as much down time during the day so you can feel fulfilled in your workday.
- Lastly, I have linked the suicidal link here for you. Please contact someone if you are feeling suicidal. There is someone always here to chat and assist you with finding resources that can help you process through some of those emotions that you might be feeling right now.
National Suicide Hotline
Helps individuals in suicidal crisis with support
- It appears that you like to write things down. Is this something that you might be able to do to clear your mind? Journaling has great properties to it as it makes us process information at a different rate. We are using multiple parts of the brain when journaling which can in turn make our brains work, help us remember, and even get out a lot of those feelings we might be holding on to. Poems count, so keep up the good work!
- Have you tried changing your sleep patterns? If you are in need of taking a nap mid-day in the bathroom at work, it might be beneficial to take a minute to think of where you might be in need of sleep. Sleep schedules at night help our brains rest and get our bodies ready for the next day. I often make suggestions of limiting tv time before bed, taking a hot shower or bath, and maybe even finding something to read to exhaust the mind before bed. This could help you get a more restful nights rest, which could help you stay awake and focused in the daytime.
- Lastly, make sure that if you feel as though this is a pattern that you are letting someone know. If you are working, you probably have insurance. If you look on the back side of your insurance card you will find a number. You can contact this number and ask for mental health resources near you. They can help assist you in finding a professional to talk to. This could really help with how you are feeling and give an extra ear to talk to.