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I am at a point where I believe everything in life is pointless. I feel like everything is a lie. Even this: I’m in a class with 2 girls I have crossed boundaries with and because of that I may need to switch. Which then I need to connect with other people. But I may not have a same level of connection with anyone as much as I did those two! Man do I feel like I’m a… stalker………..
Yeah. I’m just getting by life. Graduating. And then probably being nothing because I know too much. What? Did god choose me to be the one that actually knows everything!? I did not ask for this! Knowing it all makes me want to unknow it all. In other words, I’m still feeling suicidal. AND I JUST DID SOMETHING TODAY THAT ALMOST HAD TO GET THE POLICES ATTENTION. THATS HOW BAD IT WAS.
Something I believe is that one tiny mistake you make could end your whole life. Unless you wanna tell me that’s not true and try to argue with me.
I am getting closer and closer to just wanting to end my life. And you’re not beating me with the “stay hopeful, things will eventually get better.” Stuff. Life just chose to gave me a role, and eventually it will give me a role to just be something that I may enjoy. But still in the grand scheme of it all, everything. Is. Pointless. Literally everything.
Thank you.
RIGHT NOW
- Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. It’s not an easy thing to do, especially when you’re feeling like you are right now.
- Nobody here is going to argue with you. It sounds like things have been seriously hard for you, and inside you might be feeling pain, hopelessness and maybe rage.
This is one of those times to call or text 988 or chat 988lifeline.org. They are available immediately 24 hours a day, 365 days a year to listen and to provide expert help for anyone who is feeling suicidal. Please contact them now.
If you already have a plan to carry out ending your life, please call 911 or go to your nearest Emergency Department at a Hospital. Tell someone you are having a suicidal crisis and that you need help.
WHEN YOU ARE READY
- It will take a while to work through what you are thinking and feeling. Right now, you are in a CRISIS situation. We want you to SEEK HELP immediately.
- After you have done that come back and visit us on the road to wellness. Read our updated blog on Peace and Rest. Learn skills and practices that help you find calmness like Breathing Techniques and Relaxation.
