Hi Teen Central!
It’s me again! I feel so incredibly hopeless. I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I started out in 9th grade as a Straight-A student, and now I am at risk of failing high school. I feel so like an idiot!!! I made STUPID decisions to procrastinate and not focus on my work, and I didn’t even realize the support system I had built out for me. I constantly victimized myself, and I never wanted to work or do anything. I just genuinely didn’t want to do my work sometimes. YES, THIS IS NOT TRUE!!! SINCE I LOVE DOING MY WORK AND I LOVE SUCCEEDING!!!!! So, I essentially have no idea what I did. I think I did it so I would put myself at the worse position possible. I think a part of me wants to see myself fail. It’s like I deserve to fail. I began this mentality in 10th grade, when my peers would make fun of me for doing so much work in my classes. I have disappointed my teachers, my dad, and especially my mom. I can’t even face her right now with how heartbroken she is. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I DID WHAT I DID!!!! I AM INCREDIBLE!!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!! I now feel lost, as if I have no goal or purpose in life, as a direct result of my actions. I have always had a way out, yet I choose to stay and wallow in my sadness. I feel like I like to suffer. I am so not okay. If I would have only just focused on my work, WHICH I WANTED TO DO and not watched stupid You-tube videos I would have been alright. If only I had done it, I would have been incredible. I truly have no idea what to do with my life at this point. I have no idea how to get it back. All I know is what I should have done to have never lost it in the first place. Where is this little girl in me that worked so hard to succeed? Why am I destroying all of my hard work now? Why am I ruining my life? I feel like it’s since I feel like I have time, like I’ll do it later, but later never came and now I’m incredibly incredible!
Helping Yourself
- We’re so glad you decided to reach out for support with this issue. The first thing to know, is that you are not alone with this. So many teens have difficulty and lose their way as they’re growing and developing- it’s actually very normal! Allow yourself to acknowledge that.
- The good news is, it’s never too late to change. It may be difficult, but it’s doable. You just have to decide if that’s what you want.
- Have you thought about meeting with a counselor or therapist to help you understand why you made the choices you did, and then develop skills to avoid those traps moving forward?
Consider This
- You may want to consider meeting with the adults in your life that can support you. For example
- Your teacher(s)- let them know how you’ve been feeling and ask for their help with getting back on track academically.
- Your parents- let them know how you’ve been feeling and ask for their help and support. Asking them for help goes a long way.
- Your friends- are your friends supporting your good habits or not? You may want to take a look at who you keep around you that influences your decisions. There may be certain times when you’re struggling that certain people may not be beneficial to be around.
- You may want to find ways to acknowledge the positives. Whether it be positive affirmations that you wake up to in the morning, notes in your locker, reminiscing about successes at the end of the day- take the time to acknowledge the things you’ve accomplished versus the things you didn’t.
- Have you tried setting goals every day? Something achievable so you can see your own growth.
- Most of all, always remember that you are worth the effort, and you have people around you to lean on for support when you need it.
