i am 12 years old and i am scared of my mom she hits me alot sometimes i be disrespectful to my mom im sorry for being disrespectful .but i say sorry to her but my punish is to get beat. my mom punches me all in my face she kicks me in my stomach it made me almost throe up. she said wan she looks at me all she see is blood she said she wants to kill me i love my mm but i dont want to go to a group home. my gamma just sits there and let it happen on day i had a knife and i told my gamma that i was going to kill her but i really wasent going to do it i was just scared .but i am not crazy i just want somebody to love me i dont want to kill people i want to kill my self but im scared to. i try to tell people in my family but thay dont care. and my sister is 13 and she is my moms favorite day do every thing to gather. tody my sister lied to my mom and said i broke her computer my mom is soo mad and im soo scared im going to get badly beaten today im so scared. but i amjust going to have to deal with the hits i have a lot of bruises all over my body .so yeah bye.
HELP YOURSELF
Thank you for sharing your story with us as TeenCentral . It sounds like there is a lot going on right now, and there are some things that you can do to help yourself.
The most important is for you to be safe. At any time that you feel as though you are being harmed by someone you can always call 911. You can also contact the help center that I have added to this post. Someone is always there to talk to and to guide you to get the help that is needed. You can also text “HOME” to 741741 if you don’t feel like talking to someone directly. This is a crisis hotline that is there to provide guidance and resources. Lastly, I have also included the suicide hotline. You mentioned the want to harm yourself. There is always someone here to listen.
National Suicide Hotline
Available 24/7
Helps individuals in suicidal crisis with support
988
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Child Help USA National Hotline
Available 24/7, over 170 languages
Helps youth who are suffering child abuse
1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)
http://www.childhelpusa.org/
You had mentioned talking to people in your family. Is there someone else that maybe you could talk to such as a religious leader, coach, someone at a summer program, work, or even one of your friends’ parents? Someone that you feel is safe with.
CONSIDER THIS
It sounds like there is some conflict in your home. Is there a way that maybe you and your mother or grandmother even could discuss how everyone is feeling in an informative but also respectful way? We have great resources on ” Fighting Fair” where there are suggestions down to taking breaks so that everyone can talk about how they are feeling.
We also have another resource that is called the ” Conflict Organizer” that discusses the same types of things, but in a more constructive way. This way you can also get your points out in a more planned out way. You could even ask your sister to do this with you to show how conflict at times can really make things worse.
Lastly, find a way to calm yourself when you are feeling as though you want to give up. You mentioned in your post that you would harm yourself. There is always a way to work through these thoughts and to find what works for you. In our Learn section we have a resource which I have linked here that gives information on these very topics. Know that you are important!!!!
