I feel like my friends are being fake. I don’t feel like my friends really care about me and I feel awful for making them stressed. I’ve been grieving a recent loss, and asked one of my friends to come to the guidance counselor at school with me. I kept saying that she could leave if she wanted to, but she stayed there with me. Now she is complaining to all her friends that she missed class and is all stressed. I feel horrible and like no one cares about me. On top of that, I have Depression, anxiety, PTSD, and ADHD. I recently got back from the Mental Hospital and have so much work to catch up on. I feel like people cared at first but not anymore. I feel like I don’t have anyone because no one understands or is willing to be there for me. Yesterday I feel bad but I skipped class and cried on the locker room floor because I lost one of my best friends. I contemplated suicide for a little bit but then I cried because I thought that I could get out of my pain by dying. Also one of my other friends seems really upset at me but I don’t know what I did. I feel like I’ve never been able to keep friendships and I’m so stressed. Help.
THINGS YOU CAN DO FIRST:
- Thank you for sharing what you are experiencing with the TeenCentral community. It sounds like you are experiencing some sadness and stress from a number of angles right now.
- We hear you that you contemplated suicide at one point and we are glad to hear that you are working through it, but no matter what your safety comes first: if you or anyone you ever feeling suicidal you can reach 24/7 help from the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 or Lifeline (suicidepreventionlifeline.org). If you don’t want to call you can Text “HELLO” to 741741. You can also educate yourself about suicide prevention, depressi0n, and anxiety on the SAMHSA website: SAMHSA – Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration or the NAMI website: Home | NAMI: National Alliance on Mental Illness
- We also have some useful information on our LEARN tab regarding grief, loss, depression, anxiety, and suicide. The primary function of our website is to offer information to our community so we hope you will take a look at some of the tabs.
- Also, serious depression and suicidal thoughts are a tough topic for young people to understand and cope with. While we hear you saying you are trying to talk to your friends about such serious topics, one of the key components for navigating such tough stuff is having a positive and supportive adult in your corner. It is great that you are utilizing your counselor, also consider connecting with other supportive adults such as your parents, religious leader, adult family member / family friend, or the therapist that you were linked to after the mental hospital. A safe adult may be more equipped to help link you to professional therapeutic services who understand what you mentioned you are diagnosed with.
THINGS YOU CAN DO LATER:
- If you already have professionals or supportive adults in your corner, consider sharing the feelings you shared here with them. Keep a journal with your daily thoughts. Journaling can be a great way to get the information down, allows for you to process how you are feeling, collects self data for the things that trigger you or events that make you anxious, and allows for you to be able to potentially talk more freely to your support adult/ therapist. If you are artistic, you could even draw your daily mood or thoughts. This may help to get things down on paper and help you track your daily mood.
- On our TOOLS page we also have some useful options such as Self Positive Talk, Social Skills, and Weekly Mood Trackers that you might enjoy.
- Before you go, check out our WHATS NEW tab for other ideas on how to talk about suicide, breath through stress, and journaling. Be well and stay safe.