I’m a 15 yr girl who’s depressed as heck, my friends don’t like me, and I don’t like them. I’m a tcc loser who loves perps and my life will never change since I’m a weirdo. I like older guys even though I shouldn’t, and some days I can’t get out of my bed to do the most simplest things. I feel gross and stupid for it.
THE HERE AND NOW:
Thank you for your story, it sounds as if you are going through some challenging things right now. It also sounds as if you are feeling pretty badly about yourself right now.
Keep yourself safe. You are important. If you ever start to feel unsafe reach out to 988 or text HOME or HOLA to 741741 to reach a live volunteer Crisis Counselor at any time of the day.
- It appears that you have very strong feelings about being a part of the TCC, there is nothing wrong with true crime – though it seems concerning when we hear you say you love perps. You can learn some ways to keep yourself safe by looking at our LEARN tab on the Dating and Relationship Violence section. It is paramount to keep yourself safe. Also, on the TOOLS tab there is a Keeping Yourself Safe and a Good Friend/Toxic Friend section on understanding healthy relationships.
- It is worth it – you are worth taking care of. Think of speaking to an adult whom you can trust to see if you can link to some helpful advice. If you prefer someone your age to speak with you can text “TEEN” to 839863 or call the Teen Line to speak directly with trained teenagers who understand the unique social and emotional pressures you face.
CONSIDER THIS:
- What type of community would you like to be a part of. We hear you when you speak negatively about yourself – so it may be worthwhile to explore some new hobbies and opportunities. What do you like to do with your time: walking outside, exercise, creating things, or maybe helping out other people.
- You are dealing with an incredibly heavy weight right now, but please know that feeling stuck or disconnected from your peers does not make you gross, stupid, or a loser. When you are experiencing severe low mood, your brain and body may lack the ability to handle basic tasks, making the simplest actions feel like climbing a mountain so Use the “Micro-Step” rule: When getting out of bed feels impossible, lower the bar completely. Do not try to clean your room or get fully dressed. Focus on one tiny thing: sit up for two minutes, wiggle your toes, or take a single sip of water. Celebrate these micro-wins without judging yourself.
