I wanna be better. I made him so sad when I relapsed on pot. I had just gotten out of rehab two months ago and I’ve been high ever since. He gets so sad at me and sighs and it hurts so much because I want to be better for him, but then something happens and I need to be in an alternate universe. He doesn’t understand it and I can tell he’s getting tired of me, but all my other friends say to forget about him. Do I really love weed more than him?
- Working through addictions is an extremely difficult thing to do. Thank you for reaching out for support while you deal with this difficult situation.
- When dealing with addiction, it’s very important to figure out who you’re trying to get better for. You stated that you want to be better for “him”. Wanting to get better for others is fine, but can you find a way to want to get better for you? Wanting to change things for yourself is how you make things more permanent.
- Is there anyone in your life that you trust enough to talk through this with that you feel will support you and look for your best interests? Have you tried talking to a professional counselor or therapist who specializes in working with adolescents with addictions?
- You may want to reach out to the hotline below in order to find help for your situation
Substance Abuse Mental Health Awareness National Helpline
24/7, English and Spanish
Support and referral for drug and alcohol services
- You may want to consider who you surround yourself with and where you go while trying to work through your drug addiction. If you have people in your life who tend to pull you in that directions toward drug usage, or you go places where it’s common, you may want to look for others who will support you getting through this addiction. Friends, especially, should be people who help you become who you want to be, not people who hold you back.
- In our “Learn” tab, we have a section regarding substance abuse. You may want to consider looking through this section and seeing if there is anything that can help you. We’ve also had other teens submit their stories dealing with their own drug abuse issues. If you’re interested in reading what some others are going through, and the feedback they’ve received as well, just type “substance use” or “drugs” into the search bar in the “Stories” tab and they’ll come up. This may also help in realizing that you’re not alone in this.
- Most importantly, dealing with addiction is not easy, and it often takes time and setbacks. Be proud that you’re reaching out for help still, and don’t give up on the progress you’ve made and the progress you still want to make. People make mistakes all the time- don’t give up on yourself for it. You’re too important for that.