i want to relapse because of school. im failing my second marking period and have no motivation to bring it back up. ive been 2 years clean of self harm and if i fail this year i might relapse or attempt suicide. this is my senior year and i have dealt with 2 major family deaths and the school still wants me to make up everything. i hate being me
- Thank you so much for reaching out to Teen Central. Adjusting to school in the time of this pandemic has been so incredibly hard. There’s no easy roadmap to show you the way. We are so glad you reached out to the Teen Central community for support.
- Struggling with suicidal thoughts or the urges to self harm is daily work. We know that you have been working hard to be safe and we want you to KEEP GOING! There are so many people ready to listen and help! If you feel things getting too out of control, overwhelming or feeling hopeless, PLEASE reach out to 1-800-273-8255 or text HELP to 741741. You can talk to someone right away that understands what you’re going through and can listen anytime day or night.
- Besides the wonderful support from the resources above, do you have anyone in your life that your could talk to? We ALL have times that we need help, and speaking up is brave and a great way to take care of yourself. It sounds like you could use some help from your teachers, guidance counselors, or maybe your parents/caretakers so you can successfully graduate. Please think about reaching out to one of them and let them know what is happening.
- We hope you are proud of your accomplishment to go so long without self harm! When big stress hits, like you’re facing with school, it’s normal to feel the urge to go back to old habits – even harmful ones. We hope you keep up whatever coping skills you have been using these two years and KEEP GOING! In the LEARN section, there is information about self-harm that may be useful to you.
- What kinds of things do you do to take care of yourself? It’s a REALLY important goal for each one of us to do something every day that helps “recharge our batteries” and remind us of the good that balances the bad. Check out the LEARN section for information about wellness, and using meditation, yoga or mindfulness to find peaceful moments in your day.
- Finally, we’re so sorry to hear about the deaths in your family. Losing family members is so overwhelming, and yet you can be left feeling kind of numb at the same time. You will go through a roller coaster of feelings, and there’s no “right” or “wrong” way to experience grief. Be patient with yourself and allow yourself the time and space to grieve as you need it. Check out the LEARN section for information about Grief that may provide some comfort.
- WE WANT YOU TO BE HERE – YOU ARE NOT ALONE!