I feel like I always have to put a happy face on so I don’t show my emotion. When I do show my emotions I always get told I’m faking it. Everyone says I’m not depressed because they don’t see it, and if I cry I always get told I’m fake crying. I always hate that I get accused of things that I don’t do. I’m trying my hardest it feels like i’m not worthy or not enough for people. I wish this pain will go away, I’m feeling numb and like worthless inside of me. If I had one wish it would be people believing me and telling me it’s okay instead of feeling like I’m feeling like an empty tree on the inside. I always hate when I get told there’s nothing wrong with you. I feel like my bad behaviors are because of my mental health deteriorating. I’m tired of telling my feelings that matter when I know people are lying. I’m turning 17 on Saturday. I just wish i was enough for people so that I can show my feelings. Maybe if I try to commit maybe people would believe me. I know I’m not going to die I’m not even going to try it, but seriously why does it have to take for a kid to show their point about how they feel. What can I do?
- First thing I want to say is thank you, for having the courage to reach out to TeenCentral for guidance. Often times, reaching out for help is very difficult for many reasons. Be proud of yourself for making that big step.
- Having feelings that you want to end your life is not a great place to be. I am hoping that you consider helping yourself by calling the National Suicide Hotline:
If you are feeling as though you are in crisis or if you are feeling as though you want to hurt yourself, please contact the resources listed below. You can contact the crisis number by texting “Home” to 741741. The nice thing is that you can text them and someone is there to talk 24/7.
National Suicide Hotline
Helps individuals in suicidal crisis with support
- Support to all individuals in crisis:
Support to all individuals in crisis
Text “HELLO” to 741741
HERE ARE SOME SAFE PLACES TO TURN FOR HELP:
- Have you tried sitting down and talking to your parents? Often times being able to have a talk with the people that you trust most will help and they can be a big support. If you don’t feel comfortable doing that try another adult you trust.
- Your guidance counselors they are there for you! Reach out to your school- via email or Zoom in order to contact them. At some schools, you can even make an in-person appointment to talk directly with them face to face.
- Check in with your teachers. You may only see them during class or virtually but they are still a resource that can connect you to the help you may need. It’s one of the people you have (some sort of) contact with almost every day.
- Here on TeenCentral website you can find resources that might help you. Under the Learn Tab click on Depression. This will give you a better understanding of what deprssion is, why and what to do.
- In the Tools Tab you can find:
Making a hard decision – https://teencentral.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/09/ProsCons.pdf
Weekly Mood Tracker – https://teencentral.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/016_0028B_TCWeeklyMoodTracker.pdf
- There are also many hotlines available to you on the TeenCentral HELP tab. Read over them because one of them may apply to your situation perfectly – and they respond immediately to you. Know that you are not alone. You got this!!!