Why does my mom hit me when I do something wrong and not listen to me it will hurt my body with the belt? So I used my step dad’s old phone to talk my friend out of suicide and so that I have something to do. Every time I come home I just sit around and do nothing. I have no entertainment and nothing to do. I think I have ADHD because I cannot sit still and just do nothing. When it comes to that point I just look for things to do. In this case, I used my step dads old phone. I am very scared because I know he will be mad and there are a lot of times where when he is mad he hits me and beats me up. I fear him a lot when he is angry and I feel like when he gets home from work my mom will tell him and he will get very mad. My mom already hit me with a belt a lot of times and my arms have cuts because of it. I don’t think my own family understands me because they only focus on the bad things I do and when I try and improve all I get is an “ok” or an “as you should”. I don’t know why I always do bad things but my mom yells at me a lot and I am scared to tell her anything. I want to end my life so everyone that I annoy everyday with my bad antics can live in peace because it’s like this wherever I go. Everyone wants to stay away from me and I think the problems in my family will end with me.
IMMEDIATELY – RIGHT NOW
- Thank you so much for contacting TeenCentral! It’s clear that you are afraid at home, and we are glad that you are courageous enough to call out for help in some way.
- You have shared so much important information with us. It is important to start off by stating that you are not a burden on anyone. It is normal to feel this way after experiencing the things you described in your story.
The best thing to do is call 911 or go to the nearest Emergency Room for evaluation. If you can’t or don’t want to take that step, then please pick up your phone and dial or text 988 to talk with someone from the National Suicide Hotline. You can also chat online at 988Lifeline.org. It’s very obvious that you feel alone, but this is the time to do what’s best for you. Only you can help yourself right now. You have worth no matter what you may or may not contribute to anyone or anything. You, yourself, matter.
AFTER THE CRISIS HAS PASSED:
- Once this current crisis has passed, it may be worth reminding yourself that you are not a burden on anyone, despite what others may make you feel. Developing a support plan may help you feel safe when having suicidal feelings.
- Click on the “Learn” tab of the Teen Central website and click on “Suicide”. There may be some information there that could help you out.
- Refer to our page Getting Help for Abuse on Your Own.
- It may be difficult to connect with your parents in this moment. Is there another trusted adult in your life you could talk to? Try reaching out to them as a support for you while you’re feeling this way. It may be beneficial to seek a professional, such as a counselor, who can assist you with both the immediate crisis and then ongoing.
- It may also help for you to find things to do in your spare time when you’re feeling bored. Are there any new hobbies, activities or clubs that you’d like to try out. Give something new a try and see how you like it! You may find something you really enjoy that you’ve never tried before.
