Am I Just A Burden?
My mom saw my cuts; she didn’t say anything.
She acts like I’m okay but I’m not. My parents are giving me pill after pill; and sometimes I think about what would happen if I took the whole bottle. I want to die I really do; yesterday I almost tried too. I didn’t though for the sake of my sister. When I spoke up they just brushed me off. I don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off dead.
If you are contemplating suicide please call CHILDHELP USA at 1-800-442-4453. There are professional counselors there that will listen to what you have to say, the call is also available 24/7, it’s confidential and it’s toll-free.
You are not alone in what you are going through; life is difficult for everyone and some feel the same way you do.
Talk to a counselor, or a trusted adult , about your feelings. This may help you to get at the reason why you feel the way you do. You may even be able to invite your parents to a therapy session, or take up family therapy. They may help your parents see how you really feel.
You should try to take very good care of yourself, get good sleep, exercise, take up an interesting hobby, read books about maintaining a healthy self-esteem, or do something fun once a week. All of this help you in turn to enjoy life, which will indirectly help you for the better.
Volunteering in the community for a cause that you care about can also help how you feel. Not only can you change someone else’s life by volunteering, but you can also learn to appreciate your life as well.
What triggers you wanting to cut yourself?
Who can you talk with to help deal with how you feel?
What are some of your awesome characteristics?
What do you believe your purpose is in this world?