Why Can’t I Just Fit In

I hate that people bring up anything inappropriate make me extremely uncomfortable. I hate how I look. I hate every bit of fat on my body and wish I could just starve it off. I hate my personality so much, I’m a weirdo who doesn’t deserve anything good. Why can’t I just fit in? I hate that I’m too loud. I hate that I’m too fat. I hate that I have ADHD. I hate that I have Social Anxiety Disorder. I hate that I’m bipolar. I hate that I’m not normal. I hate that I share too much information with people. I hate that I don’t know how to act. I hate that I’m always either too quiet or loud. I hate that I only work on extremes, either too loud or too quiet, too fast or too slow, really happy, then really mad. I hate it all so much. Why can’t I just, be normal.

I hate the fact that I am aware I repeated some of those parts but I’m too lazy to go back and read it too take them out, and am instead typing this bit. I also hate that I can’t spell easy words correctly and go to google just to put words in here. I hate that everyone’s better than me, no matter how terrible they are.

HELP YOURSELF NOW:

• Thank you for reaching out to TeenCentral and sharing your story. You are not alone. Sometimes life gets tough and can cause you to feel down on yourself. Recognizing it and reaching out for help takes courage. You should be proud of yourself for that!
• Do you ever just want to talk to someone? There are resources available should you ever need them. If at any point you begin to feel unsafe, or need to reach out to an impartial person, use the resource Crisis Textline. This service is available 24/7. Just text “HELLO” to 741741 or visit www.crisistextline.org. There are other resources listed on TeenCentral under HELP.
• Sometime we hold our emotions in. Unfortunately this often causes us to feel worse. It is important to talk to someone. Do you have someone you trust that you can talk to? This may be a close friend, a teacher, a guidance counselor, or a relative. Not only could this person be there to listen, but they can also possibly help support you as you work on feeling better.

HELP YOURSELF LATER:

• Have you ever considered that you may be struggling with Depression? One of the things that Depression can do is make it so hard, sometimes impossible, to see the good in ourselves, in our life, and in our future. Consider checking out the information about Depression in our LEARN section. If any of the information sounds familiar to you, take heart that Depression is not your fault. It is an illness, and you can feel better with treatment. Would you consider talking to a therapist? It isn’t ok for you to keep feeling so down on yourself. If you’re interested in talking with a therapist, you could ask your parents, your guidance counselor, your teachers, or another trusted adult.
• Another way to express your feelings is to journal. What may be causing you to feel this way? Even if you can’t think of anything good right now, can you remember something that you used to enjoy? Those feelings are still there, they just may be masked right now and hard to access. What things make you feel better? What things did you used to enjoy? Click here for a resource that may help.
• Sometimes participating in activities can help you feel better. When we are physically active it releases endorphins that can make us feel better. Being active can help reduce stress too! Do you enjoy any physical activities such as walking, aerobic exercise, yoga, etc.? Click here to learn more and try some out!