My mom lashes out when I don’t do something I’m supposed to do. I’m 28 but this has been going on since I was little.
She never lashed out at my 2 older brothers in the way she would me. I went through my mom’s files when she & my dad weren’t home.
I found a file that had something to do with CPS, my mom, and me when I was 12 years old.
I have told my mom on several occasions that I have an ED (eating disorder) but she doesn’t think I do because I drink so much coffee and I don’t look like “skin & bones”. I told my mom I am 97% sure I could have a drug problem with one of my current medications. She hasn’t done anything. I tell her constantly that I have thoughts of harming myself and others. Nothing is done.
I told my psychiatrist… I hope she does something before I do something.
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- Thank you for taking the time to write in to share your story with the TeenCentral community. We hear that you are going through a difficult time right now and we hope you will find some useful resources on our website for your current situation.
- While we understand that you have a current psychiatrist, our primary concern is that you are safe. We always offer resources on our HELP tab that we encourage you to use if you feel you are a danger to yourself. For example, you can use the Crisis Text Line which is available 24/7 by Texting “HELLO” to 741741. There is also the National Suicide Hotline which is available 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255. Your safety is paramount. Other resources you have at your finger tips are the local county crisis numbers which are often found on the local county websites.
- While online and electronic resources are always readily available, it is very helpful to have supportive people surrounding you. Consider what people in your life can you talk to whether it be your psychiatrist, a therapist, a close family member, or a long term, positive friend. Who can help you push through these difficult times right now? It sounds like you have some challenges in front of you with family, healthy eating, and taking your medications as prescribed.
- Hopefully when the immediate crisis passes, you can have a discussion with your psychiatrist (or you can call the number on the back of your insurance card where it says behavioral health) about adding additional services and supports to your life. Consider talking to your doctor about Intensive Case Management (also called blended case management or targeted case management), Peer Support Specialists, or other Assertive Community Treatments for example. Building your professional team is just as important as your personal team.
- Think about finding a positive activity in your life. Could you join a local chorus, do community service, volunteer, join a local running group, or a writers guild? Hobbies and activities not only give you a positive outlet but they can also increase your positive supports and give structure and meaning.
- While we understand that you are familiar with our website, we would like to encourage you to consider trying something new from our TOOLS tab. Maybe something new that you’ve never tried before like: yoga journal, sun salutation, yoga poses, or daily positive reminders. We hope this will encourage peace and tranquility in your life and help you take care of yourself in a positive way.