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im tired of being ugly

By September 6, 2020No Comments

i know this seems small but the constant thought that you’re not good enough sucks. i was always self confident up until sixth grade. i thought i was so good-looking, smart and funny, i really did. even when people called me ugly i never believed them. i was so happy with the way i looked. sixth grade hit and i got into a fight with a girl and she made a group chat and added her boyfriend and another girl. they all called me ugly and said i looked like a rat and it didn’t stop there. they made fun of me for at least four months. they said they were going to beat me up and one day they followed me into a bathroom and made fun of me. after that i was never the same. i don’t look at any photo of me and think it looks good. there’s always this sad energy that im ugly and i tell it to myself every single day to the point i’d rather be anyone else then me. i wake up everyday and call myself ugly- i am me 24/7 until i die. i go through so much pain and it pisses me off when kids say im ugly. I KNOW. people are also racist to me too. i just want to disappear. i don’t want to die, i just want to come back as a prettier person. i wish i could go to the people that hurt me and say a good F YOU. i don’t wanna exist and im tired of keeping it in. im so done with life and everything.

 

Help Yourself

  • It must be very difficult to be in such pain right now. First of all, we’d like to tell you how proud we are that you have the courage to reach out when you’re feeling this way.
  • Have you tried talking to a family member or another trusted adult about the situation? It’s not always easy to talk about the things that cause us pain, however in this situation you are fighting two different battles- the one against yourself and the one against a group of bullies. Family members can be very strong advocates if you let them. Maybe talk to them and give them a chance to support you in this.
  • If, while you’re navigating this situation, you begin to feel unsafe and you need another resource- consider using one of the hotlines below.

         Crisis Textline
         Available 24/7
         Support to all individuals in crisis

Text “HELLO” to 741741
www.crisistextline.org

         National Suicide Hotline
         Available 24/7
         Helps individuals in suicidal crisis with support

1-800-273-8255
 https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

 http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

 

Consider This

  • If you haven’t already, you may want to consider using some of the resources published on our Teen Central website. In our Learn tab, there are resources under Bullying and Body Image that may help you.
  • The website also has resources under the Tools tab that may help, including tools on positive self talk, ways to reduce stress and anxiety.
  • Please remember- bullies use people’s insecurities against them. Do you trust the opinions of this group of people to determine how you feel about yourself? The best way to show a group that they have no power over you is to stay true to yourself. Try to find people who support you in becoming the version of yourself that you want to be.