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School Makes Me Want To End It All

By January 12, 2022No Comments

I want to kill myself because of school. I lost my nephew and my grandfather and they still made me make up all of the work without full credit and i might fail. i feel like it’d be easier just to end it all then to keep suffering like this.

 

HELP YOURSELF NOW:

  • Thank you for sharing your story with us at TeenCentral. You have a lot on your plate right now. And while school work may not seem overwhelming normally, it certain may feel that way after going through the losses you have experienced. It takes courage to share your feelings and to reach out for help. Take pride in yourself for doing that!
  • Your safety is most important! We want you to be here and to know that you are not alone! That’s why we’re so thankful that you reached out to us. The next big step we’re going to ask you is to let someone in your life know how you’re feeling. It’s really important that you have the support you need to get through this really tough time. Consider someone in your family, your friends’ parents, a trusted teacher, guidance counselor, any adult that you trust.
  • If you believe you aren’t ready to talk with someone in your life, there are many people that can offer you help whenever you need it. When you are struggling with thoughts to kill yourself, no matter what time it is, you can text “HELLO” to 741741 for the Crisis Textline or CLICK HERE. OR call The National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or CLICK HERE.

HELP YOURSELF LATER:

  • Suicidal thoughts come up sometimes when people feel they cannot solve a problem or escape a situation. We’re thinking you feel desperate to keep succeeding in school, and also so very sad about losing your nephew and your grandfather. The combination must be overwhelming. There is HOPE. It may be very hard to see an answer, but you do not have to be sad alone, and you do not have to fix this problem with school alone. Please let someone help you.
  • There are resources in Teen Central that may help. In the LEARN section, there’s information about Grief and Loss that may feel helpful, and Depression, which also may help. It’s ok to talk about your nephew and your grandfather, whether you’re remembering a nice memory of them, or feeling sad and missing them. There’s also a section about Suicide that we hope you will read.
  • Consider talking with your guidance counselor to learn exactly what you need to do to pass the school year. When we feel overwhelmed, our thoughts and feelings can get jumbled and crash over us like a huge wave. That can make it really hard to figure out a plan to work through a problem. Once you know more about what you need to do to pass the year, you could use TOOLS like the Daily Task Chart or the Daily Schedule to help you stay organized.
  • When feeling this way, and even if you don’t want to, it is important to take care of yourself and find things that make you happy or at least give you some peace. In our darkest hours, it is important to surround ourselves with bright lights. What activities bring your joy? Maybe art, yoga, listening to music, or going for a walk or run. What people make you smile or feel less stressed? It’s totally normal to have trouble thinking about things you enjoy now when you’re grieving and stressed. If that’s happening to you, think about things you enjoyed before all of this happened, and try some of those things again. Check out our WELLNESS section in LEARN for some ideas as well as TOOLS for some resources. Find what makes you smile and do it!