Keeping It Inside
Lately I’ve been feeling trapped in my own thoughts like I have no one to help me out. I feel as if I’m running away from something much bigger than I am. I don’t know why I have been feeling unlike myself lately. I have two loving parents who love each other. I have amazing siblings. Just over the years I’ve felt something balling up inside and its asking to come out. I don’t like this feeling. It’s like I’m losing myself slowly. But I can’t help but keep it to myself and smile through my pain. I’m only 15 and I’m scared I won’t be myself anymore. I feel as if I can’t talk about this because I’m not allowed to, like this ball inside is controlling my life one way or another. I end up doing something it likes and each time that happens I can feel it growing stronger. What if at one point I can’t fight it anymore and I lose everyone around me because of it. I can feeling people slowly spacing from me outside my house and I know it’s my fault…..
- Feeling trapped with difficult thoughts can cause you to feel isolated and alone. You are strong for facing your fears and seeking help.
- Reaching out to Teen Central is a big first step to no longer feeling alone. There are many people that are out there willing to help 24/7. Check out the HELP section for all of the helplines that are available to you. Please utilize a helpline, such as the Crisis Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or text HOME to 741741 if your difficult feelings ever reach a point that you feel hopeless or unsafe. You are not alone!
- Consider reaching out also to a trusted person in your life. Starting a conversation with your parents or siblings, even though you know they are loving and amazing, can feel intimidating. Trust that you know these people. You can start with something as simple as “I’m not ok”.
- Click the LEARN tab to read about topics such as Depression, Anxiety, Spirituality, Wellness and more. The resources included may help you find ways to calm some of the feelings you are experiencing.
- How would it feel to start that conversation with a trusted person? If it feels very hard or overwhelming, try writing to that person (you can choose whether or not to share this letter), practicing in a mirror or talking to a beloved pet. You are in control of this conversation.
- Pick one resource or topic in TOOLS. Choose something that feels manageable and not overwhelming. Aim for 10 minutes a day that you devote to taking care of yourself.
- Can you identify the times of day or situations when you are most likely to give into “the ball”? Consider focusing on these times of day or situations to use a new resource.